Reality Check...

Um, and why are my stressing over said loser when I have job offer?!

Oh, right.

I shouldn't.

Good girl.

Pour Mon Cher

Almost cried with emotion today in realization of how things are going.

I used to wonder what that would feel like. What it was like. On the surface of my own misgivings.

And should we not go any further with this, I want to thank you now. I really do. Thank you. I haven;t felt in ten years. I haven't felt in ten years. And now I'm seeing, I'm really seeing. Let me see it. Please don;t take this from me now, don't let me down. Down put me back where I've begun.

We argue, we drink a beer, we sit with your family I can't stand. But this is real. This is real. My days of being a courtesan; a living doll, may well be over. I'm scared. I'm scared because of all the terrible things people tell me. I'm scared because I didn't think I could be happy in this way. I'm scared because I worry over everything. I'm scared because I want you to be happy too. I'm scared because I'll still be feeling when it's over.

If I don't break, come with me. Please follow. Please.