Chin Up!!!

Job situation looking better as have at least scored an interview. Not o sure it's what I'm looking for, but it's better than nothing, right?

Wish I had someone to talk to... bored and need something new.

Shopping out with Sher yesterday who's having the same struggle. Having dinner with Genev tonight at El Cantinero! Excited mildly... begruding the thought of having to return merchandise bought for no reason in this same neighborhood.

Skeevatz Chris has been hanging around. It kind of annoys me honestly, I feel so frustrated, I never find anyone I like. Sher says I'm too picky, but I don't think that's it. If I could just get a job, I'd be happier. Personal acheivements, right? I've just got to keep trying. You don't get anything unless you really want it. I want this. I want a new job. I want a new life out of Bloomingdales, out fo my old norm of simply moaning about an issue instead of solving it. I want a new job. I want a new job for Sher too. I want success I can come home and think, I'm doing something worthwhile, I'm working to potential. I'm encompassing all my talents and not letting my brain waste away in the mindless world of retail.

And as for all the dimwitted losers I date on and off in New York simply to get into this party or be seen there can go to hell, too. This si getting me no where. I want to be adored. I want to be revered. I want to be with someone who will apprechiate my mind and not my family backing or my shape.

I want to move forward.

And, like I said, you've just got to want it bad enough. I do. I'm trying.

Keep dancing, babe.