Merci

So four days and a tan later, I get it, it all makes sense. Ker, you make everything make sense, heal all the horrid things I did.

The world isn't black and white, there isn't any right and wrong that's whole. And anything worth doing isn't ever going to be easy.

James, I'm so sorry I blamed you entirely. I get it now. Sometimes bad things happen, people make desperate mistakes, and sometimes it isn't about anyone else. It doesn't have to be. This wasn't about me, this was about you, and I should have seen that. But I was in shock, I was angry, I felt cheated, and I felt everyone around me was out to get something. But there's fault on both sides and we're even now. It doesn't matter what happened, it doesn't matter.

And what's left to do now but move forward.