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Going clubbing tonight with Sher, Jen and Ash. Wow.

The weather is gorgeous out. So gorgeous, in fact, that I actually want to go running.

Went shopping last night and blew more money. Hmm.

Ah! Phone Call!

Ok. We're on the list for one place and the other we're smuggling me into. Fabulous.

Have been procrastinating about cosmeticology project; have no desire to do this.

But then do I ever?

Fucking Jags... Was talking to Jimmy at work yesterday, who was going on about how happy he was not to be single. I mentioned I had just recently gotten out of a relationship and that it was three years. He asked me what that's like, to spend three years with someone, more or less, and then just let it go... but when I think of that part of my life, it's nearly another person... all the pictures in the apartment, all the looks he gave me, disapproving childlike... Sometimes you wonder, what you were thinking.

I only wanted what I could never really have.

This rejection is a dangerous thing.

But all that has changed now, I'm different, the world is older, I'm smarter. I won't go back down dead end roads again. I'd like to hope so, at least. And when I really think it over, I'm happy now.

It's really over.

Free...